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3 / Know first who you are then adorn yourself accordingly

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“And right now he was feeling the weight of all those losses, and the weight of the years that were behind him, and the weight of the ones that were still ahead, however many there might be — three or four, twenty or thirty, maybe more.” —Tom Perrotta

The Leftovers

Welcome to lockdown

Double-click the folder above for your soundtrack to the newsletter. We are in lockdown.

The world is in lockdown. A virus with a crown of thorns jumped from bat to a pangolin (most likely) to human and now it has taken over the world. Who could have predicted this? Oh, right.

Animals packed in tight inevitably breed disease and spread pestilence upon the world. We never seem to learn. It has happened oftentimes. It will continue to happen. Unless?

Take me to church

It’s just hit 4am and Vada is asleep in her carrier still, hopefully until morning this time. The third episode of HBO’s The Leftovers has just rolled credits as “Amen amen amen / take me to church / I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies” plays through my headphones.

This is the episode that cemented the show’s brilliance in my mind when I first watched it, a few years back. The time seems right to begin again. Begin again.

For those unfamiliar, The Leftovers begins with an event in which 2 percent of the world’s human population suddenly and mysteriously vanish without a trace. The show deals with the fallout of this event and the lives of a handful of characters in upstate New York.

Seems sorta salient in today’s uncertain times.

Social (media) isolation

For the month of March, my wife and I went on a social media detox.

It was cold and lonely and I don’t recommend it. I didn’t even get that much extra reading done. This was primarily due to having a one-and-a-half-year-old to look after I think.

Mostly I found myself continually spamming the news and looking for loopholes in the term “social media”.

OK I admit there was a certain calm solitude in it (from the absence of twitter most likely).

But it’s good to be back.

Things to do with solitude

For those simply skimming this email here’s a list of things we’ve been up to during lockdown. (note: please don’t skim my email)

  1. We played JackBox Party Pack with friends over a live stream and group chat
  2. I finally got my electric bike back and we took Vada for a ride in her bike trailer
  3. My team at ABC released a few stories about COVID—19 while on lockdown
  4. I was finally able to continue my X-Files rewatch on Twitter
  5. All the tea in the house mysteriously ran out so I ordered some more from my friends’ tea shop down the road
  6. The night before all the restaurants were locked down we went to our good family friend’s amazingly authentic restaurant A-Thai-5 in Mitchelton and talked about uncertain times
  7. Vada and I have been going for evening walks along the Brisbane Riverwalk
  8. And like everyone else on the planet we bought Animal Crossing and lockdown life on the island is going well

The silver screen

The old Netflix and Prime Video have been getting slammed lately. The government even asked them to turn down the quality of their streams so it wouldn’t ruin our terrible internet connections.

If only there was some kind of competently managed National Broadband Network or something in place to deliver good internet to all Australians ¯_(ツ)/¯_

Anyway thanks to Letterboxd dot com for helping me remember all the movies I’ve watched over the past month. Here are some tiny reviews.

  1. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind: I can’t believe I only just realised that they are flashing back their relationship in reverse order from end to beginning so it starts out with all the bad memories and it slowly works its way to the good memories of their beginnings and then they decide to give it another go. They remember the good. I think that’s beautiful.
  2. Horse Girl: Wow. This was great. Probably don’t talk to me if you don’t like this movie.
  3. Knives Out: Enjoyed this. James Bond with a Southern accent was weird though.
  4. I Heart Huckabees: I remember seeing this at the cinema when I was younger and thinking it was really poignant and deep. Now it seems a bit silly. Still enjoyable though for what it is.
  5. Neighbors 2: Sorority Rising: So much better than I expected. Really took the concept in a new and interesting direction. Funny as!
  6. Hunt for the Wilderpeople: I liked it when they hunted for the wilderpeople.
  7. Back to the Future Part III: I had this one on VHS as a kid so it was pretty nostalgic. I liked it when they went back to the future and when they kept saying that they had to go back to the future.


Fleabag. That’s it. Watch it. It’s genius.

She is risen

Vada continues to rise at times before 4 in the morning.

She is risen once more. It’s getting light outside slowly. A repeat of the other morning is playing out. We’re walking around the house. I’m singing.

And soon enough she’s drifted off, like a koala in her carrier. Again I put on The Leftovers through headphones. Episode 5 this time. Gladys. They are stoning a cult member to death. A member of The Guilty Remnant. Intense. Compelling. Maybe I’ll go make a cup of tea. It’s 5:55 am.

I don’t think I’ll be sleeping again until tonight.

Hold tight

That’ll do for now. And how are you holding up? Tell me something I don’t know. Literally.

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…one more thing

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